Well its official my father is a d*ck, and a g*d D*mned loser.

my mother found out my dad has been seeing someone for a couple yrs now. we thought they just were having sex. turns out its worse.
She had some intel that said he was taking some women to the movies and dinner and stuff. She thought it had been for two yrs. my mother plans on moving out and leaving him. they aren't married so there is no problem there, but after so long being wit someone and having three kids you think that they just didn't want to spend money on a wedding.
anyway, turns out he's been seeing her for 18 yrs. as old as my younger sister. she knows all about us. he talks to her about his problems and us. talks very highly of my brother. he's helped her with her former coke addict husband, helped raise her kids, helped with her mothers funeral as well as attended it, helped her move to her new apartment.
while he missed my sisters communion, my sisters and i baptism, my grandmothers wake(forced to come to funeral so he looked good to family), our births(he was there for my brothers), b*tches about bills and everything we do. takes my brother places, pays for his sh*t, doesn't fight with him about anything. He beat my mother all during my sisters and i pregnancy(not during my brothers), and my aunt refuses to lend my mother money to be able to make it when she moves out because she thinks that my dad hasn't done anything wrong. she thinks that he's so nice.
He's fooled all our family and his friends. they think he is great. but in reality he's dr. jekyll and mr. hyde. we get hyde(or witch ever one is the bad guy), and she gets jekyll. my mother would have felt better if they were just sleeping together but the fact that he is emotionally attached to someone sucks. plus it totally sucks to find out that he loves your younger brother more cause he's a boy, and your older sister because she's from a previous marriage. but that he doesn't love you or your younger sister because your from the women he doesn't love in any way.

so my life is falling apart, i don't know what to do. she doesn't have enough money to move out due to my aunt, and if she confronts him we'll probably have to call the cops. if he doesn't kill my mother first. idk, i wish life was easier. i hate my father but it still hurts to find out he doesn't love you like other people.

On a side note i'm working hard on my digital illustration class. i have some nice stuff to put up i'll try to get it up here tonight.

i have a stock account if you want to check out, have yet to update in a while, camera is charged though.